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At the W

At the W
Originally uploaded by greensunflower.

Babe and I are fans of the self portrait.  It can catch things just between the two of you, which are about both of you.  Babe likes to get a little zany when doing them, but I catch one or two a year when his tongue is in his mouth.

We are currently chillin' at the W San Diego.  We are here for my sister's graduation, but also taking some time to be us.  My sister says she is cool with that, as long as we are hers for all of Saturday. 

Tonight Babe and I are going to a great steakhouse, which I have been to before.  It is great and has a delicious beef wellington.  Something I can no longer indulge in due to my gluten oppression, but Babe can sink his teeth into it.

Then we are coming back here to hear the DJ spin some tracks (I am so cool) and hopefully my sis and her friends will join us. 

I am glad to be in San Diego.  I love this place and could even live here (if Runt never comes back to the bay).   

A Man And His Fishes

The morning started out great.  Babe and I woke up early to go about eating to break-fast and then catching 1-2 fish at the trout farm, and heading off to wine tasting. 

We successfully ate and then headed off to the trout farm.  We had to rent poles and buy some worms, then we get down to the water and realize neither of us know how to use a fishing real.  Or rather I do a little bit, but couldn't remember how to loosen the line to cast it out.  So a nice guy nearby refreshes my long lost, from the time I was 12 years old memories, of how to fish and we are on our way. 

Well it is a trout farm and in a pond the size of a football field they have 20,000 fish stocked.  So we catch two really quickly.  As Babe is pulling them off the hooks, he gets really excited.

Babe: Babe do you really want to go wine tasting today? I mean we can always go wine tasting, but how often are we at a trout farm?

Me: Well I was kind of looking forward to a relaxing time wine tasting.

Babe:  But sitting my this lake (I guess he overlooked the fact it was a pond) is sooooooooooooo relaxing.

Me: Ummm...

Babe: Well we will catch 10 fish and then go. You can tell me then if you really want to go wine tasting.

Well 2 hours and 11 fish later, while Babe has fish guts up to his wrists because rather than using the hook puller outer, he digs the hooks out through disembowelment, we decide to forgo wine tasting and get him home quickly for a shower.  All the while driving, he proclaims how he stinks of fish guts, and he just loves the smell.  How pleasant...

Ah, The Good Life

You know what is good?  Waking up with a Babe who is relaxed.  Who doesn't want to go out to breakfast because he doesn't want to get dressed yet, so we order in.  Then looking out my window at a beautiful landscape, while Babe starts a fire in the wood burning fireplace in our room.  I feel so good on this trip.  My anxiety is low and Babe is chllin' a bit too. He is still working some because he says that makes it so his anxiety isn't bad, but not as much and I like to see some break from his 14 hour a day work schedule.

Today we are going to a spa where I will get a massage and Babe a "gentleman's facial." That man loves his facial.  He will never get a massage when a facial is offered as a choice to him.  Personally having some personal pick at my face for an hour and put weird shit on it, does not sound enticing, but it is heaven to him.

So that is where we stand.  Pajama'ed, in our room, in front of the fire place, looking at the ocean, getting ready for a day of relaxation.

And for those who loves pics, here is a pic of Babe by the coast when we went out last night to see the sunset.

Let Sleeping Men Lie?

Do you what happens when you take a man on a 2.5 hour car ride and then feed him an early dinner?  This:

Please notice the time of this post as well before 8pm.  I am going to get him up in a half hour or so and we are going to watch the sun set.  I am kind of glad though, that he came where the internet is shitty, he cant watch TV and he sleeps at 7:30 at night.  After weeks upon weeks of 4-6 hours of sleep/day and endless working with no play, it is a great birthday present to see some relaxation commencing.

But until he gets up this is the view I am enjoying from my room.

Happy Birthday To Me!

I am 26 people!  Twenty fucking six! Or as my dad says, "on the downhill side of the twenties."  That is depressing.  I am on an all out jog to 30... yikes! 

For my bday Babe is taking me to a coastal retreat for two nights of relaxation and romance.  I am guessing I am not getting the puppy, I have been feenin for because how can you get a puppy when you are on the coast?  Oh well.  Someday I will have my puppy but until then, I will have to make due with mad cuddling with Babe. 

There will be internet in the hotel and Babe will have to work at least an hour each day, so maybe I will be blogging, but I am sure there will be pictures.  If not, see you on the weekend.

Back From The Lake

Well, I didn't tell ya all, basically because I am lazy, but I have been away at a beautiful lake on vacation, with Runt and dad.  I don't have any photos because I didn't take any and meant to get them off Runt and dad's memory stick, but alas did not.  Don't know if I ever will.  It was a nice time, but I left early.

I don't know if it was the whole bowl of wheat flake cereal I accidentally ingested or just the fact that I was fried and away from a normal home for so long, but I started to get really anxious.  As I often do when away from home for too long, without someone who can talk me down from my freakish levels of anxiety.  So I just came home and as I drove into the restaurant parking lot to meet Babe, Big J., and mom, I just felt my anxiety leave me.  I was back in my comfort zone. 

I did cry when I left Runt and dad at the lake because I was  worried that I was missing out on something because of depression and anxiety, yet again.  But as I was driving and my anxiety decreased with each mile, I realized that I had planned to cancel on the trip all together and the fact that I made it 5 days, was actually great and I made plenty of memories in that time. Yes, my Runt and dad are going to make memories without me, but they have tons of those, they just get along better and want to do more together.  I cant let that get me down.

But now that I am home, it doesn't seem Babe is that excited to have me home. Granted the first thing I did when I saw him was bitch at him (I really need to work on this bad habit), it doesn't mean he has to bee so crabby with me.  He is really stressed out at work and I think his parents being here and seeing a lot of realities is getting him down, but still.  I mean I would just like to hear more than "pick the blackheads on my back" or "you smell like a dog please take a shower."  I was really looking forward to getting home to him, but right now I am feeling alone and disappointed.

Cold Sore Hell

You know, when I was snorkeling I felt my lips were dry.  They are usually protected by a thick layer of Carmex with SPF 15, but the Carmex was in the allegedly waterproof cubby under our butts, so I didn't want to get it out.  This is what I get.  Oh, it is the vacation that keeps on giving!

Did I mention this shit is painful and did you notice how fucking huge this thing is?

Updated:  This is where we are 5 days later.  I am so cute with this thing.  I went to a party last night and felt like everyone was looking at my lip.

I'm Back

After 7 days of relaxation and tiring myself out having tons of fun.  I am hope and getting ready for summer and a wedding /scream/

Please keep looking back as I hope to be posting more again.  And I will be back to commenting soon.  Just as soon as I recover from my sunburn.  Who knew salt water took off waterproof sunscreen?

Cruise Day 3

I am currently cruising the Mexican Riviera on a big ass cruise ship.  This is the view from my cabin in the morning Isn’t it beautiful?  I cant believe how much relaxation I am getting in while I am here.  It is a total win after the semester I just had.  Oh did I mention I got straight A’s too, so I am doubly plussed before going on this vacation. 

So I sit here on my cruise ship balcony writing a blog entry in MSWord because internet is $0.75/min.  Can you fucking believe that?  I feel sorry for the poor internet addicts who actually pay those prices.  It is a good thing I am not an internet addict /cough, cough/.

Last night was a great night  It was the captain’s dinner night where they serve lobster and have free drinks at a reception, prior to dinner. The drinks sucked.  I don’t know if you can find cheaper alcohol, but the lobster was great and then we went gambling in the casino with mom.

I drank more last night than I ever have any one night in my life. But I found that though  I am get tipsy quickly taking me to the spot of being passed out must be a long journey because after much drinking last night, I didn’t get there. Oh well, guess I will have to try again tonightJ 

Nordstrom Whore

I guess it could be worse, I could be a crack whore:)  But I spend so much money every year at Nordstrom shoes.  I don't think their clothes (the ones I can afford at least) are worth it, but their shoes are my heaven.  I went today for a pair of crocs for school, since one of my clinical instructors said I can wear colored shoes! Yay! I have to wear all white and this will break it up at least a little bit. 

But who can go to NS and not find other shoes you NEED, especially in light of my up and coming cruise  and their huge supplies of cute sandals.  I got some Clarks' sandals.  Very dependable quality and comfort from those shoes!  I cant wait until I am on the deck of that ship and loving my sandals and a drink with an umbrella.